Erin Keenright

Loving God, Loving Others, and Loving Yourself

The Long and Winding Road

Where to begin…back in 2007? No…too long and involved. Back in 1977? No…Way too long and involved. How about in September of this year with little blips from last spring. As some are aware, I took some time off of work to literally get my head on straight and returned to work in June. To my credit, I did give it an honest effort, but found out my effort wasn’t enough in September. To make a long story short, I wound up officially resigning as of October 31. I still have mixed emotions.

Is this the right choice for me and my family? I found out I could apply for disability retirement. What if that doesn’t go through? What if my writing doesn’t take off in order to provide income for us? What if no one asks me to come and speak at an event or Bible study? And then there’s school…what if I can’t finish? Even if I do, how do I know I will get accepted into seminary? As you can see, there is more I don’t know than I do know…A LOT. Not to mention feeling like a quitter for leaving my job.

However, here’s what I DO know:

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29:11

The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. – Deuteronomy 31:8

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. – Romans 8:28

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. – Ephesians 3:20-21

being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. – Philippians 1:6

What all these verses have in common is God’s faithfulness and sovereignty…and none of it hinges on my ability to perform (which is good because my performance is usually sub-par!). What is up to me is to trust and believe…even if I make a mistake and ruin everything, God is still faithful. He still loves me. He knows what I need even before I ask it. But these verses don’t apply just to me…THEY APPLY TO EVERYONE. You are loved and treasured more than you can ever imagine. Every tear you have cried, every sleepless night you have had, every time you experienced unfairness and injustice, our Heavenly Father knows about…and He wants you to trust Him to take care of it for you, the good, the bad, and the ugly.

So, while my life may look like a road map of detours and wrong exits, by trusting God, I can know I will reach my destination and there will never be a point in that journey I will have to face alone. The verses above aren’t long or difficult. I challenge you to pick one and (write it down if you have to) commit it to memory. It can’t hurt and it will only help.

1 Comment

  1. Very insightful, Erin. You open your heart and speak truth. And as we’re all sinners saved by grace, we need these reminders of God’s faithfulness. Thank you.

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